Hey girl -

Wow 94 wpm?  Awesome!!  Glad the dvds will be mailed to you.  Much cheaper and easier that way, lol. What's with the free feminine products?  Was it like a trial offer thing or something?  Lol, weird.  Awesome for you though!

Nice of her to buy you the jackets.  Was it just for the hell of it?

Hope you're doing well :-)
-Alisha-

I am glad to see you are feeling better about yourself :)

and living on your own is really nice. 

a part of me wonders if you and feher might actually get together... you never know... stranger things have happened :P

Hey baby!

I'm glad you're doing so well - this is such a positive entry!  You've got your friends, your beautiful and confidence, your routine, you schoolwork, and your MONEY!!  Life is good, isn't it?  I'm so happy for you!  I hope you can keep this positivity in your life for good!!

Love you!
-Alisha-

PS:  Let me know if you want those dvds delivered to me!

Hey babe!

I FOUND YOUR DVD's!  Go to this site: http://www.tvaddicts.tv/movie/drama/Ready_or_Not.html. They're $99.00 - I didn't check to see if they will mail to Australia or not but I think they will.  If I had the money, I woulda bought them for ya and sent them as a gift :-)

I'm so happy for you that you have a friend like Feher to be there for you.  You two are really close and I think that's just great.  Whether or not something "more" ever comes to be with you two, I think it's ok; you seem satisfied with what you have.  Do you give hugs?  Well there's some male contact, at least.  Lol.  I know it's not the same if you can't plan a kiss afterwards, but at least it's something.  I thought maybe you two were close enough to have him play with your hair and such....

Love ya!
...keep an eye on the mailbox ;-)
-Alisha-

Hey you...

I hear ya, as far as living from paycheck to paycheck.  It's stressful.  Hang in there!  That's weird that Feher's date is only 17!!  Wonder if he's still gonna give it a shot?  Still think you two might have a future... although, like to said to me, you don't want to risk losing what you have.  But what about little Feher kids?  Ooooops!  Thinking too much!  Sawry girlie!

I'm glad you didn't rush things with Matt.  That coulda turned out bad.  You wouldn't want him to be so laid back and lazy after he becomes a father, you know?

Love ya!
-Alisha-

Hey girlie!

That's so awesome you got all of your furniture rearranged and your house cleaned up.  I bet it looks beautiful!  You really seem confident about this decision you've made to end things with Matt.  I'm very glad for you. 

Drugs, Crime, and the Law sounds like an AWESOME subject!  I think I'd be overwhelmed with the study though.  I don't think I could ever hang with getting a degree in law.  Just TOO much for me!

I got your letter :-)
I'll be writing another one this weekend and I'll send it on Monday!
-Alisha-

My cat is missing and I feel like it's the end of the world...

My thought is that I want pizza. lol

My thought of the day:
Where in the hell is my letter from Ashleigh? 

Lol, just kidding.  I know it'll be here soon... Do you think I'm a bit impatient?  Haha.

-Alisha-

My thoughts are do whatever it takes to make you happy

Yeah that whole friendship circle, including Brooke and Ed, seems complicated.  No fun.  Wasn't Brooke one of your really good friends? (In fact, the only girlfriend of yours I actually ever see you talk about?! ...besides your sister, of course)  And then Ed's the one you don't really like, but sort of pretend to?  Lol.

How confusing!  That's really a shame that their relationships kind of breaking up your group.  I always hated it when my friends dated "within" our group.  It makes for some awkward situations.

Just another reason why you should move here and be our neighbors.  Hehe.
-Alisha-

Hey you-

Pineapple juice is so yummy.  I craved pineapple slices practically my entire pregnancy.  I think I ate too many of them though because as of now, they don't sound too appetizing to me.  Lol.

I wonder why you have so much pain in your bones and joints?  Have you ever seen a doctor about that problem?  Sorry :-(  It really sucks to have body pain.  We have a sh*tty mattress so our backs hurt all the time... we desperately need to buy another one.

Mayla does look like both of us, doesn't she?  She's like split right down the middle with our features.  It's so exciting watching her grow and seeing her characteristics change.  One day she looks EXACTLY like Shawn, the next day she looks more like me.  So cute.

This may be a personal question... you don't have to answer.  Are you in any way upset that Feher's got a date?  Just wondering.

Love ya!
Feel better, dang it!
-Alisha-

I love pineapple juice so much. Mmm, it's been so long since I've had some.

I am envious of how eager you are to take care of yourself. I would much rather be taken care of and have everything handed to me.

Firstly, thanks so much for your comment.  Its because of people like you and Alisha that I feel confident enough to put pics up :-)  Its quite strange, but I've never really been that confident, not about how I look anyway, but having my diary and my friends on here has really helped me *pause for soppy moment*.  Lol, seriously, I mean it though, thanks. 

Secondly- OH MY WORD.  I can't believe Matt is being such a jerk.  One of my friends went out with a guy for 10 years and was engaged to him for about 2 when she caught the sod cheating on her.  And then he threatened to bleed her dry, financially speaking.  I have made threats against his knee caps.  It just amazes me how men can be like that, especially when the girl wants to compromise and try to make things as fair as possible- its so like us women- always trying to be fair, good and reasonable.  Don't roll over girl!!!! 

Thirdly, I really hope you feel better.  I usually make this drink when I am feeling like that and it really helps.  I don't know if you have rooibos tea in Aus, but if you don't you can make it with boiling water.  I usually make the rooibos tea, chuck the bag and then I add two or three tablespoons of honey (which has antibacterial properties) and then two or three tablespoons of unsweetened lemon juice (vitamin C).  It helps soothe a sore throat and is very relaxing.  I used to drink honey and lemon juice with boiling water after a hectic night out as well, just to help soothe the pre-hangover! 

I honestly think he shouldnt be getting any money out of this and should be paying you for your help! You have paid his way through alot of things and he should realise that he needs to pay that back!

Its your choice, but if it were me I wouldnt be giving him any money and I would be asking for more money in return... but thats just me, I cant stand when people dont pay up or tryto bail out on things!

I wouldn't give him any of the savings.

It's probably fair for him to have back his half of the bond/deposit.

Feel better.

Hey girl

I think you're being totally fair with him.  No way should you take on his debt!  You supported the both of you while he was at home playing video games and forgetting to shower!  Lol.  I think signing a new lease in your name and giving him his share of the money is an excellent idea.

Ooo your guy friends are coming over tonight.  How fun!  Sorry you're still sick.  That's a real shame.  Hope you get better soon!
-Alisha-

Hey...

I got in those 2 entries without you noticing because I've been bored and lonely all night so I decided to write two of them.  Lol.  I'm a sneaky little devil :-)

Thanks for answering that whole "Pickles?!" question of mine.  So, what, are you Bell?  Heehee.

You have some sweet friends.  Isn't that nice having such caring friends?  That's so awesome that they're there for you.  You are one lucky girl!  I think that's why I've been hanging out with Sheena on a daily basis now, pretty much.  I used to be "one of the guys" - I had absolutely no girlfriends.  Until I met Shawn.  He didn't like the whole guy-friend thing.  So, now I'm doing the best I can to connect with Sheena.  The only problem is... I'm competitive.  I want to look better. And that's not what friendship is supposed to be about.

Thank you for the pic compliment!  I am SOOOO looking forward to your letter!
Oh, and the guy from ebay is going to send me another one of the cooking things tomorrow morning absolutely FREE of charge!  YAY!  So lucky...

Hope you feel better soon, love!
-Alisha-

Hey -

Sorry you're feeling ill.  Pickles?  And what kind of name is that?  Lol. 

...Hmm hmm, Feher in your spare bedroom?  ;- )

Hope you start feeling better. KICK ASS that your neighbor's gonna mow your lawn!  So what if he's doing it out of sympathy?  At least it's a break for you!!!  Lol.

Still waitin' on the letter... can't wait!!
Love ya-
-Alisha-

feel better sweetie :)  your hair is so cute :P  trell was like "she's cute, it's nice to put a face to the name"

Take care sweetie x

ya i dont know what im going to do... he just walked away when we were talking last night and i havent heard from him since...we are suppose to go to a friends together to watch top gear but i have the episodes on my computer so i dono...

he works today.. i realise i over reacted but honestly its dumb when do the lies and the hiding things stop? he said he was done with that stupid stuff and that i could trust him... well that one stupid little incident makes me believe he is capable of hiding more, that maybe he is hiding more.

were going to talk... i dono this might be the end... i am tired of trying to make him love me enough not to hurt me... i cant do that, fror some reason he doesnt seem to care if he hurts me... so i dono

whats your idea of cold?? :P probably like 17 degrees??? hehe

I c`ant believe people would actually eat kangaroo!!! but i guess thats equiviliant to other people eating like frog... or weird stuff!!

but still kangaroos are soo cute!

I absolutely LOVE your new haircut!

Be glad that you are cold. It's 95 degrees here and humid.

Hey there, beautiful!

YOU LOOK GORGEOUS!!!!!!!!  I love your hair!  It fits you so well.  I loved you long hair, too, but this new look really kicks ass!  I'm so glad you like it, as well.  Beautiful, beautiful, beauuuuuuuutiful :-)

Well, maybe this is for the best that you and Matt are officially "over."  I guess it's been a long time coming, right?  You've put up with a lot of his sh*t, that's for sure.  I'm glad you feel ok about it, too.  And not just ok, but good.  You are such a strong woman.  Are your friends (Feher, Ed, Brooke, Heff) saying anything about the disappearance of Matt?  Are they bummed/happy/indifferent?  Just curious...

WTF is Kangaroo Mince?  PLEASE don't tell me it's actual meat from a kangaroo!?!?!?  Yuck.  That is so sad :-(

Love ya!  ... I can't wait for you-know-what!!  I'll be checking my mailbox daily!  Lol.
-Alisha-

your hair looks awesome!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

kangaroo meat?!!?!? ugh i couldnt do it!!

You look so much better (happier, less stressed/weighed down).

That meat is awfully disgusting...

I hope now that you've gotten rid of such an unhappy part of your life, things will turn around for you. It sounds as if they have already.

omg omg omg

i looooooooooove your hair you look so refreshed and alive! very stylish!

its strange the way things turned out between you two, are you going to stay in touch/friends? it is great you have a good group of friends. hope your study gear finds you soon. at work, all the things we order are running late late late as well, must be the delivery people having troubles. blah. i love re-arranging around the house, i'm going to do it when josh moves out :)

have an awesome weekend!

i feed kangaroo mince to my cat,

your hair looks nice btw

Kangaroo mince??? Oh my gosh.  For some reason that makes me queasy.  I love Winnie the Pooh, and two of my fave characters are Kanga and Roo (I'm straaaaaaaaange, I know ). 
I LOOOOOVE your new hair.  It really, really suits you.  I was thinking *Oh my word, that long hair was so beautiful, how can she bear to cut it off* but then I saw that pics and I have to say, it looks absolutely divine.  I'm gonna post pics of my hair sometime next week, its not nearly as dramatic (or stunning!), but anyway! 

Have a lekker (cool) weekend! 

you sound so much happier and confident; you finally have a peaceful home. can't wait to see your hair pics :)

and f*** yeah $100 pay rise! i can't believe you're classes start on monday already, that break went so quick!

i feel so sorry for that kid who's parents are fighting in court... i rekon they suffer the most. it must be so exhausting, emotional too.

Hey girl -

I'm SO glad you're still alive :-) 

Hmm... I'm wondering whether or not something is going to happen between you and Feher...?!  You seem pretty adamant in stating that nothing will happen.  I guess if it does, it does.  That's really cool that you have such a great friend who is there for you during this time.

What a stressful job you have!  I can't imagine having to deal with situations like that and not take it home with me.  It would linger in my mind and stress me out.  Hope your mind has been able to rest a bit.

I CAN'T wait for the hair pictures!!!!!  Hope you figure out how to get 'em off your phone soon!  I am SO excited to see them!

Love ya!  Talk to ya soon!
-Alisha-

Are you ok?  You never came back!

Hope you're alright!!
-Alisha-

Mmmm, peanut butter.  I love peanut butter.   
Oi, I hate hang overs.  Much sympathy, I hope you feel better.

Hey girlie...

Sorry you're hungover.  That sucks that you had a sh*tty experience (pun intended... haha) after the laxatives.  Poor Ernie!  One time my mom's dog ate 1/2 a bag of Twizzlers (licorice) and puked everywhere.  Before he puked, he just sat, staring down at a rug with a sick look on his face.  Funny but sad.  Anyway, hope Ernie's better - Hope you're better too :-)

Oh, have you gotten the letter yet??
Love ya!
-Alisha-

Oh hunny, I feel your pain.

You are not a fat lump.  I am the fat f***ing lump with stretch marks.  Lol.  You are beeeeeeautiful!  You'll be fine.  Nobody will be paying attention to what you look like anyway.  Please try to have fun.  No need to stress about such things (lol hypocrit warning!  ... as you put it, once upon a time)

Love ya, girlie...
Waiting for the hair pics! 
-Alisha-

oh jesus christ (about the laxatives)

You'll be fine. Just relax and have fun.

are you going to do something different with your hair? my mom is the opposite she thinks i should cut my hair short.

may be getting your hair cut will make you feel better, i always love getting my hair cut.

She sounds like a nightmare!  Relationships like that don't last...trust me.  Your boss needs to sort her sh*t out before the business goes under. 

Yay for your hair though woot woot!!  Pics....we must see pics!!

wow sweetie, sorry about your relationship... but maybe it was a long time coming?

I just hope that when and if the time comes to mourn about it, you can. because it's completely normal to feel sad about something like that. Maybe you won't though.

Take care of yourself xo

It does appear to be over since you're enjoying his absence a bit too much.

It's too bad, but I guess that's just how it goes sometimes.

More cons than pros...

Sorry...

Haha, I just read your results from the quiz.  Don't feel bad - I'm totally not offended!  I made it hard and I was actually just doing it to prove what I do and don't mention in my diary.

I was a total band geek in junior high :-)
-Alisha-

Hey girlie...

Yum those noodles sound tasty!  I don't know if I'd like the extra spice, though...  I'm glad to see that you're doing ok right now, by yourself.  I'm happy to see that you're not lonely.  Sorry to hear that it might be over, but maybe that's for the best.  Maybe he needs more time to grow up and the two of you might get back together in the future, who knows.  You're a strong woman and you deserve the best, which he definitely has not proven to be.

Love ya!
-Alisha-

Um, was that a coffee pot reflected in the mirror? In your bathroom? If it was, you are too funny. lol.

And I very much approve of the hairstyle you want.

Your bone structure is similar to hers. You could TOTALLY pull it off!

Have you thought about staying with Matt (if you want to) but maybe having a friend as a roommate instead?

Wow, your hair is sooo long. I used to want my hair really long but now i cant have it too long because of work. I think you would look great with Jessica's style. Its a really good look and very stylish

Alissa

Hey girl -

I would love to have your long, beautiful hair.  Mine breaks off at the ends and looks like sh*t.  I'm so bored with it...  I need to do something with it, but I sooo don't wanna cut it off again.  I need a trim, though.

Anyway, I think that hair would look awesome on you!  You could totally pull it off.

Love ya!
-Alisha-

Hey girl -

I'm so proud of you!  You really do seem so happy about it all, too.  I'm glad.  I hope the happiness sticks.  I also hope the two of you can work things out in the end.  I really don't want you two to be "over."  I love you, and I know you love him.  I just really want him to grow the f*** up and step up to the plate and be a MAN for you!  You deserve the best. 

Cuz your my bestest bestest friend :-)  Heehee

-Alisha-

...oh and ps, you should be checking your mail within the next few days!!

you might not feel anything right now because he has been doing things that were frustrating for so long, so you may feel that you arent missing him because you can only remember the bad right now.

keep busy and just let things happen as they happen, he will figure out how he feels and what he wants to do and so will you !

honestly: good for you. i think it's a step in the right direction because of the way you feel about it. just do what you think is right. you're friends are great. 

take care of yourself okay? we're all here for you,

jo